The Amazing Connection

My Internet connection via M1 mobile broadband sucks. Well, for $16 a month, it must have some drawbacks but I didn’t expect it to be THIS bad!

For starters, i will be connected to the Internet fine for the first few minutes. After that, the problems starts. Haiyahhhh. I must disconnect and reconnect then it will be fine again until the next time it starts to buat perangai again. Do you know how frustrated I am? I cannot watch my Desperate Housewives and Greys Anatomy without having it be stuck at certain parts and I have to load the page again.

I called M1 and they asked me to clear the cookies. Eh, if cookies from Famous Amos, I would have cleared it in a heartbeat ok! LOL! Then eventually the CSO couldn’t figure out what is wrong with my connection & they transfered me to their technical support. I was put on hold for nearly 30 mins. Well, at least that wasn’t as bad as waiting for StarHub CSO to answer the call la.

The technical support person sounded so professional and handsome (based on his voice, I don’t know how he looks like. Maybe he looks like apek bawah block, who knows?) and even he could not provide me with a permanent solution! He just reset the connection and things seem to be fine after that. But the whole thing starts again the next time I connect.

I am thinking of my wonderful MaxOnline and how damn expensive it is. Well I guess you get better products when you pay more. My iPhone connection is better than the mobile broadband & I’m using M1 too. So since I don’t wanna risk my post from disappearing, I am blogging through my iPhone, which have faster (& better) connection. Luckily iPhone have application for wordpress. Makes blogging from iPhone so easy and hassle free. No need to use safari to surf the net and wait for the page to load.

Another thing is… I am so hooked on watching The Amazing Race 15. Season 16 will start next week. Can’t wait!

Oh & btw, I have been debarred from exams for all modules. Mr Alex Loh asked those who are debared to WRITE an appeal letter despite the fact that we can just fill in the debarment appeal form. Extra work but it’s all brought upon ourselves by oneself. *sigh* Lets hope my appeal is successful. My attendance percentage is horrendous, so I’m really crossing my fingers here. I cannot elaborate more about my problems to the course manager or my CA because I will start the water works & if you know me, I will not talk about the things that’ll make me cry.

Eggy

Please don’t mind the title of this post. I have no idea whatsoever what to put as title for this post. Haha.

So, I went to NUH for the appointment today. As usual, took height & weight, took blood, see doctor, check stomach (I refuse to let him check my whats in my seluar dalam), peed in a container and got the usual pills.

They took blood because they want to check on my hormone levels. You wouldn’t believe me if I said I have more male than female hormones.

They checked my stomach by pressing here and there. Doctor said to tell him if I feel any pain. I only felt ticklish so yeah, no pain no gain. Eh salah, no tickle, no gain.

I had to urinate in a container because I refuse to let him inspect me physically. Just to confirm I am not pregnant. Damn, of course I am not lah. The nurse had to say this to me, “Just to let you know, in case you’re wandering, the results is negative.” LOL! I was like, ape siak negative. Haha.

And apparently, my eggs are not mature. I have cysts inside the wherever the eggs are supposed to be, indicating that my eggs are mostly not matured eggs. So it doesn’t travel down and cause my menses to come. The pills they give me is to clear the uterus lining because it would cause more complications if I do not ‘clear’ the lining.

Oh God. I am so not normal lah. Haha.

The doctor also said that I might have difficulty conceiving. But he said that is not the concern right now because I’m not married, so that is not so big an issue. WTF.

So to bitches out there who fucks around a lot and get pregnant a lot and do abortion a lot, you would wish you were me. Can fuck like nobody’s business and have a high chance of not being pregnant. Too bad I’m not like that lah. I is budak baik okay.

So I already started taking the tablets and I predict that my mood swings would take a turn for the worst. I am gonna be mighty pissed about a lot of things that I am not usually pissed at before. So beware. I am warning you all to steer clear if my face change, run away fast fast!

About Everything Else

Boy, the past 2 days have really been erm, interesting yeah? I am not gonna blog openly about family stuff for now because I believe that you don’t air your dirty laundry to the public unless if you really want people to know your life sucks. Well, whose life doesn’t suck to them right? You might look at a seemingly happy family, but thats about all that you’ll get. Just a picture. The story behind those happy faces, you’ll never get to know. Not unless if you really kaypoh and ask. If you’re not the kaypoh type then you’ll be like the rest of us. Assuming this and that.

In life, I learn that you must always limit the things that you assume. When I assume some things, I will tend to keep the assumption to myself. Not tell the whole world about it. My ex-boss Steve don’t like people to assume. To assume something is making an ass of u and me. Get it? Ass-U-Me.

It irks me to know that sometimes, when someone is angry with me, people outside assume I’ve done something terrible. I mean its logical to think in that sequence, but sometimes what you see is just that, pada dasarnye. Di dalamnye, you don’t know what’s happening. And in my case, I will never tell you what’s wrong. What you see is what you can make of it. I’m not gonna explain to you why I did this, why I do what I did, why why why. Why must ask why? Why can’t you just mind your own business?

It’s not that I don’t want to share. Okay, fine, I don’t like to share. Never been one to tell you what’s the real problem. The problem is inside me. So I’m not perfect. Exposing my imperfections will not make me perfect, so why try explaining why I’m the way I am right?

Family knows me best. My late Father knows my bad mood and he doesn’t ask more. My mother is different. She wants to know more. My sisters? Kakak wants to know but won’t probe if I am not revealing anything. She gives advice, but you know, out age gaps is huuugggee, so some of the things she say I tend to listen, nod and that’s about it. Nana knows that if she wants me to spill my thoughts, it takes more than just asking. Must ask nicely. Haha. Even that doesn’t work. So she leaves me to it. Let me deal with it my way. I like that. Let me learn from my mistakes. Life is a big classroom yeah.

Today, I went to school. Early. I was the 2nd person to arrive. The class was not even opened lah. Mr Baey is late. Because he knows QB-ians tend to be late most days. There is a lot of things to catch up school-wise. 2 role plays, preparing for exams which I am gonna be debarred from.

School. School & me is never a good combination. ITE wise lah. And of course attendance wise. I like to live dangerously I guess. I play with fire and then burn myself. LOL. Let me tell you something, I thought about quitting. I don’t know, I feel like its a waste of time. Go school, play L4D, surf net etc etc. That is one of the problems I’m willing to share. The other reasons why I don’t want to go to school, I shall let you assume because you people loves to assume so much.

My TP is next month. I haven’t been to any practicals this week. I’ve booked for 6 lessons. Once a week until a day before TP date. Nervous? You bet. Ignoring the nervousness? You can bet on that too. I like to ignore things that will make me lose my calm. Just do it and get it done & over with. Or just deal with it & take whatever that comes after that. Gambling with life? At least not gamble money at casino, Haram eh.

March Holidays? Nowhere to go. I bet I’ll be stuck here in sunny/rainy old Singapore with nothing else to do but work. Bosan lah.

Chinese New Year? Work.

I guess that’s about it for tonight. I will blog again when I feel like there’s something to blog about.

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Hard Problem

Since my Sony Vaio ‘died’ on me in November, I am without most of my well loved songs and much prized pictures. You know, they say its always a good practice to back-up your files in an external hardisk or just back-up your files! Me? I didn’t think that my Vaio will fail me so soon so I didn’t do anything.

I’ve been meaning to buy an external hardisk and all but didn’t get round to it.

Yesterday, I went to Sim Lim Square with my hardisk and looked for a shop which can extract the data inside and transfer to a new ‘home’. The new ‘home’ costs me $160 and is very big. Haha. Macam compare condo & bungalow gitu lah. Haha. Its 500GB. For $160, reasonable tak? I went to West Mall and they are selling 160GB hardisk for $92. Less than double that price I can get more storage space.

Before finding the shop which can do all the extracting and stuff, I was walking quite aimlessly around Sim Lim and looking at signs and asking around where I can extract files and most of the salesman are not really keen to help me lah. So sad. But I pressed on and was determined to leave Sim Lim Square with my much wanted data. And then I reached level 4 and asked one of the salesman and he pointed out Com Lab. At last! I’ve found my hardisk saviour!

Selamat lelaki yang serve aku tu not as stuck up as that woman at WestMall. I cannot remember what’s the shop name lah but its the one beside the library. Wahh, tu perempuan damn sialans eh. I ask do they do data extraction and she said, ‘No’ in such a fucked up tone lah. Damn poor service. Never gonna consider going there again! But the one at Com Lab is nice enough and said that they can do it but depending on how big is the data, it might take up to 2.5 hours or more. No choice but to agree and decided that I am going to Bugis and see what I can do to pass the time.

2 hours or more is not a short time if you’re alone and have no idea what to do okay. I cannot possibly sit at the shop and buat muka poster kat situ kan. So with the aid of the map in the iPhone, I walked to Bugis. Haha. Map! I used a map! Pardon me for being so touristy. I haven’t exactly been to Sim Lim since that time I went out with Adhar. Anyway, I reached Bugis and bought a book. I cannot, simple CANNOT resist a book store. And then I went to PINC to get my nails done. First decided on a manicure, then since I still had a lot of time to kill, I did a pedicure as well. LOL. The first mani & pedi of the year. And then the Com Lab person called and said that whatever he did is done and I can go there already.

You know, my music files is about 7 GB. My pictures, is many. All my family, friends, my vain self, holiday pictures are in that hardisk and if I don’t extract the data now, I may risk spoiling the hardisk and never see those pictures ever again! When I reached the store, the guy said that the contents of my hardisk is transferred to his computer, just need to transfer to the external hardisk and that will take another 15 minutes or so.

Now, after going through my new external hardisk, I have all the datas that I need and more. I used to download movies ah, and is pleasantly surprised that those movies is still in the hardisk. Cook kan. I have Death Note, Wanted, Twilight and don’t know what else. And I have figured out how to put those movies in my iPhone! Woohoo. Cool. My music and movies are accessible from my iPhone, MacBook and practically anywhere with a USB dock. Woohoo!

This Belo is Me

Aku is very bodoh. Eversince buying a MacBook, I have been trying to figure out how to MAXIMIZE the internet browser. You see, before this, I have been surfing Safari like this….

You see. Thats the whole desktop. I cannot figure out how to maximize the Safari. Haiyoh.

Can you see the difference now?

Yeah, I have figured out how to make Safari fills up the whole screen! And after a bit of zooming in, and hiding the dock, I can now finally surf the internet without having to strain my eyes looking at the those tiny tiny words.

So how did I do it?

Trial and error. Or in this case, I got curious and ta-da! How much more belo can I get kan? Oh well. I guess using something that you are not used to using will result in this.

I Want it Back

Today, after much delay, I called NUH Clinic G to find out if I can make an appointment. Why? Because I used to go there to get some hormones so that I can menstruate on a monthly basis. When I stopped going there, apparently, I menstruate not even once a year!

I have been thinking about going back but there is always a setback. Its quite costly to go there lah when you’re a student and all. But you know, now is probably one of the best times to go and get it done and over with and so I called them.

The nice lady who answered my call said that they only keep patient’s records for a year so if I want to make another appointment, I would have to get a referral letter from a polyclinic. If I were to just walk-in and make an appointment, I would be considered as a private patient and will be charged more $$. Having a referral letter means some of the treatment is subsidised, which is wonderful kan.

So I went to Woodlands Polyclinic earlier. I didn’t wanna got to Bukit Batok Polyclinic because I am not familiar going there. And I got the referral letter and a MC for school! Yeay.

The doctor said that they would liase with NUH and will call me for the appointment date and time. Hopefully they will not call my house because there’s nobody there to answer the call.

Anyway, I really want my menses back. Feels like a few gallon of blood tengah bertakung kat dalam. hahaha. GROSS!

UPDATE: Already got a call from the Polyclinic. My appointment with NUH Clinic G is on 9 February 2010 @ 2.30 pm. Must remind myself, if forget have to do another appointment leceh lah.

Newfound Curfew

Apparently I have to adhere to a curfew. I am so used to having my freedom that these limitations set on me is an inconvenience.

I was at Arab Street earlier enjoying the company of good friends, having a sumptuous dinner and just enjoying whatever little time that I have with friends I haven’t get the chance to meet in a very long time. I was keeping in mind not to stay out too late. But at 12 am, I received a call from Mummy. And again a few minutes later from Kakak. They are asking what time I wanna come back. It’s not a norm for me as I used to pull an all nighter and did not receive any calls asking about my whereabouts.

I am complaining. But I cannot actually complain to mum because I know where she’s coming from. Without Dad around, I know she worries alot about me. My sister worries too. She have not been living with me throughout my ‘growing’ up period cause she is already married by the time I started going out and staying out. So I understand that she’s not used to this.

Time is of the essence here. I need some time to readjust my life and Mum needs to understand that before this, my social life is somewhat different than now. I don’t want to get to a point where I lose focus on what’s important and Mum gives up on me.

In some ways, I appreciate them fussing about my need to be back home at certain times. But at the same time, it’s restricting my movements when never before have I faced these situations.

I guess in conclusion, I just have to bear with this for a long long time.

The Long Hours

It has been quite some time since I worked long hours (more than 6 hours) and for the first time in about 5 years, I feel so tired standing up and walking around at work.

I wonder how last time I can tahan working for 8-11 hours eh. Berdiri pulak tu. Haiyah.

Anyway, I didn’t wake up this morning for work. I just cannot wake up lah. WTF. And I watched History channel last night.

I put in long hours watching History channel tau. Haha. Its about the sea. You know, what triggered the 2004 tsunami, hurricane Katrina, the ice caps and the Mariana trench. Have you ever heard of the Trieste? Well… Its the first (and only) submarine or some boat (aku tak sure) to descend to the deepest point of Earth that is the Mariana trench.

So interesting to watch until I forget to sleep. LOL.

So basically, today I MIA lah. And later tonight, need to go out. I so don’t feel like going because I have a major test tomorrow. SHit lah.